You can call me what you want, but I get so fucking frustrated and angry(?) yes, angry when people get "depressed" JUST because they don't have anything to do on a friday night.

Look at me, I haven't done something for more than 4 fridays, and am I depressed? Maybe I am, but not becaue I didn't do anything on the friday nights. and for your information I haven't done anything on the Saturdays either.

I don't know.... just that there are so many more things to worry about then just ONE friday.

I do not want any compassion, but Here I am, and every fucking day of my life is a struggle to stay alive. I am not jokeing. This is the firt time I "say" this to someone. Every fucking day I cry and I actually have reasons to cry but I'm not telling why here, all to private. Maybe you think I'm pathetic but I don't care because I have a symptom, "depressed-symptom" and I'm not proud of it but on the other way I can't help it. I just mean, if a free friday night get you depressed, just because you don't have anything to do this one night, your world falling apart? Then you have serious problems that you need to deal with.

And it's not depression. Just ego.

I do not live, all I do is survive.

Is that worth surviving for?

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