not enough that you can't trust your own father

That's why you should not have any expectations, especially not take things for granted.
That's why it's better to be a lone wolf.
You will not be fail or betrayed, not hurt.
Be let down, is some of the most hurtful things to be acually, cause  life are build on it. trust.

Stop promise things that you are not sure that you can keep.

So we don't need to be fail, be let down,  it's just an unnecessary pain. fucking unnecessary!!!

"Sitting and sunbathing the whole day long
with an cold beer and cigarettes."

That's what I'm going to do in a hot country this summer, alone.

But what the heck, better that way? one thing for sure, my new expectation are zero and that is what count.