Yes, today I have devote the most of my time listen to Michael Jackson, and look at som videos of him. Every 25th I put some extra thought about him.

Cause he did died at 25th of june, and I just can't get that out of my head.

For one second it feels like he is still here, and having a good time with his family and I am going to see him on stage  soon... And the next second I just feel pain. He is gone and I'm thinking 'bout all his pain he did have, and which pain his family have now and if he was alive now, what would he do?

Yeah it's hard. It's actually fucking hard, cause I do not know what to feel or think. It's just unreal..

He has been my model sice I was a kid. Remember I got the Thriller cd when I was very little and then in my gymnastic class we did a show with the theme "Michael Jackon". It was SO much fun. Still have it on tape. He has always been my inspiration to keep going in hard times.

So now, when I'm having an hard time, I think about you, it's both good and not good sometimes (but I'm not saying why here). It just feels wrong in someway cause you are not on earth anymore.

I know that you have it better now, cause that's what I belive in.

It just feels weird that you are not in an human living body anymore.

Please, can somebody from above just come and take me home? I dont want to be on earth anymore....

Well, tuff day. I do have fever and some other problems :)

But that's life isn't it?

Anyway it feels like everything has tumbling down. (more than usually) 

Friends betray, I betray myself and other things that I did have in my life is just gone and I miss it so bad, SO BAD. It just makes me depressed. I do try to think positive, but there is just one thing that comes up in my head when I do that, and it's insane.

Can't even write it in words.

-I fall and crumble down

this pain is nothing I want

We need to stop hate the folks

Cause without love we are lost

that's all from me right now.

see yaah, peace.

Never a goodbye Always a see you soon

"-Sadly sadly, we live in a state of fear.
Everyday we hear of war, on the news on the radio and television.
In the newspapers always of war. We hear nations hurting each others, our neighbours hurting each other, our familys hurting each other and our children killing each other.
We must learn to live and love each other before it's too late.
We have to stop!
We have to stop the prejudice, we have to stop the hating.
We have to stop living in fear of our own neighbours.
I would like all of you now, to take the hand of the person to the left and to the right of you.
Go ahead, right now, i mean it! Don't be sky, do it! 
Cause it starts now.
To the person next to you, to the left and the right.
I mean it! Right now! Go ahead! Dont be sky, do it, do it!
Now, tell the person... tell the person next to you that you care for them!
Tell them that you care for them. Tell them that you love them. Tell them that you love them!
This is what makes the difference.
Together... together we can make a change in the world.
Togehter we can help to stop racism. Togehter we can help to stop prejudice.
We can help the world to live without fear, it is our only hope and without hope, we are lost."

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IeVt9UEUh-8